Impatient

I have always been really impatient with myself.  I have learned (not entirely because I still slip) to extend to myself the courtesy that I extend to others. 

I remember feeling like a race car with square wheels.  Big friggin engine and the harder I pressed on the gas the rougher the ride.  I did figure out (much later than I am prepared to admit) that the square wheels were just flat tires that I refused to change.

Great things and people would happen to me.  I would be rolling along and then I would hit the bump in the road and slow down or come to a stop.  Imagine yourself sitting in a car with a flat, frustrated as hell that you were moving slower.  Pressing the gas will continue to move you forward but the ride and the forward progress is just going to suck.

So I learned to stop and get out and look.  I learned to look at the road ahead and be less concerned about the speed that I was traveling down it.  If I had not done this, I would have missed important forks in the road.  I would have missed traveling down the road I am traveling now.

So I am deeply grateful for the flat tires (the careers- the women- the places ) that did not work out like I wanted them to.  They led me to my life and love now.

If you have that flat tire...don't keep pressing on the frigging gas pedal.  Stop get out and look at the road ahead.

Sincere Belief has nothing what so ever to do with speed.   It really is the journey.

Important life lesson here.

Forgive yourself first and others will be eager to Forgive you.
Believe in yourself first and others will be eager to Believe in you.
Trust in yourself first and others will be eager to Trust in you.
Be Patient with yourself first and others will be eager to be Patient with you.

Love Dad